Some People Amaze Me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K1qtf-qJpnM



When a heart breaks, no it don't break even....

Something New

Mmm...I tried Sushi for the first time today. It's most definitely an acquired taste.
Except I liked the fully cooked steak roll. That was nice.

I also saw the movie Tangled for the first time today.
Um sooooooooooooooo cute. No wonder my little cousin worships that movie. Now I worship that movie. Thank Heaven for Disney :)

I also ate tacos and watched part of Eat, Pray, Love with my bestie. D squared.
Plus her dogs didn't eat me which is always a good thing.
I should go do my homework now.
But I really don't want to.
But I should.

So good-night.


Much Love & Spontaneity,

Katherine


P.S. Try something new this week! It's fun and exciting!

Fly Away Free

You never know until you try.

And even then it may have been better not to try.

Because now you know.

And it hurt.

What is Happening?

I ask myself questions everyday.
I wonder about certain things everyday.
I wish that he loved me.
Everyday.

It's a bit late to be wishing and wanting things. I mean. 1:04am?

Desperate? Pathetic? Yes.
Hurt? Broken? Yes.

What is going on?
I was so sure of myself yesterday. Why can't I just banish self-doubt? Gone. Just go away.
Also, I wish I could banish boys.
I think being a nun in Italy sounds great right now.
Better than school.
Better than any messy relationship.
Better than cold, winter months.
Better than sad songs on repeat.
Better than wishing, wishing things would change.
Better than crying so much and hoping someone hears.
Better than swollen eyes hidden behind layers of makeup, praying no one notices.
Better than dragging yourself to school and knowing he doesn't think about you.
Better than having to deal with everything, all at once.

I should really like to leave now.
Now.
Run away.
Hide from the world. No one understands.
No one really gets it.
Tomorrow I will try so hard to be happy. I will just let go.
Is that really the key?
I don't know anymore.
My thoughts tend to get all jumbled at 1:10 am.

Good-night.




That quote.
My life story right now.
What should I do?



Much Love & Confusion,
Katherine

Masked

I feel like I am constantly hiding. Hiding behind something that is not me. It is an imitation. A lovely imitation to say the least, but it is an imitation nonetheless.
The real me is very confused right now. The real me is falling to pieces while my walls are being stacked higher and higher and I am crumbling; trapped inside.

I wander around the memories in my mind, picking my way over and under the shattered rubble, hoping to salvage the remains of some sort of happiness; just a sliver to tuck into my pocket to keep.

For someday.

Because someday when I am lonely, I'd like to remember what I had.
Because someday when I am miserable, I'd like to remember when I smiled.
Because someday when I am past the point of no return, I'd like a reason to return.

Return to where?
Return to what?

I was hoping you could tell me.
Or maybe I shouldn't be returning to anything.
Maybe I should just move forward...

Destination Unknown.

Here I am, professing that ambiguity is delicious, and I can't even enjoy the haziness of my future. I hope that I can change my attitude soon.


Much Love & Spontaneity,
Katherine


P.S. Playing games in Journalism is the best. Especially when your friends make up rules.

A Call of Death

Today I received a call from a number.

It was the same number all the way across.

###-###-####.

Same number. All the way across.
I freaked. It was so strange. So I answered...and heard nothing.
Nothing at all.

I hung up.

It called back.

"Hello?" I whispered hesitantly.

It turned out to be my best friend. :)

It was great. It was a very pleasant surprise.
But of course, I went to the most evil and pessimistic thought first...
I thought it was like those horror movies where you answer and they know your voice now and they find you and kill you and you are doomed.

"7 days...."



Today will be an adventure.



Much Love & Spontaneity,

Katherine

Twice in One Day?

Who would have thought that twice in one day I would have access to these computers and access to blogging and be able to record my thoughts right as things are happening....

Right now:

I'm in Modern World History and I'm simultaneously researching Islam.

Don't you hate it when girls pretend to be stupid? Unless they're not pretending...
But seriously? How could you think things like that unless you were stupid??
They keep laughing about dumb things and acting like they are the funniest people on earth. Then they keep saying things about how difficult this class is.
Want to know what our assignment is?

A one page report double space on Islam.

Like two paragraphs maybe? Everyone has been complaining all of class. Wow.

I hope someday America decides to catch up with the rest World in education.


Much Love & Negativity,

Katherine