There are a lot of things that I want to say and they're all jumbled up in a pile in my mind and I can't even express what usually comes so easily to me and all I know is that I've traveled a road for a long time that begins somewhere around 7:45am and ends near 2:15pm and for 12 long years I've been doing the same thing and it's just about to end around the bend.
But really, life has always been changing and I've just had to adapt and go with whatever the flow brings, be it pain or smiles or turkey or writer's block or Christmas lights or cuddling or late night phone calls, even the messy rooms, Black Fridays, movies with mom, card games with dad, make up with baby sister, college applications, the recession, and planning, oh always planning ahead for something that is coming and I just want to know when it will be okay to sigh and read my books or take pictures. Then life decides to show me just how grateful I should be.
And I can't wait to go back to school just because it's life and all too soon it will change and I just need to be okay with how it is now. Maybe I stopped blogging for more than a month so I could breathe. So I could keep some things to myself. Maybe I was afraid to be vulnerable. But now, it's okay. It's okay because that's a part of life. You can't keep everyone out forever. Especially when all you want is to be let in.
So break in today, right now, or tomorrow if you're too sleepy. But remember that today, will never happen again in the history of the world. Make it the best. Always.
Much Love, Gratitude, & Vulnerability,
Katherine